dreamland

Happy new year

2012-01-11T00:49:00.001+07:00

New year bring new hope
New spirit
New blessings

May this year is the year. Amen.

2011

2011-11-25T02:15:00.001+07:00

another year passed by....another plans went down the drain. i love you, sorry...

it has been a while....

2011-08-02T11:46:00.001+07:00

it has been a while since my last update...
many thing has changed since then...
things that bring smile to your face...
or tears in your eyes...

i have grown stronger coz of that...
i learned a lot...
yet, i still dont have answers for lot of things...

mami i am sorry...
i can only make you worried and sad
i am sorry for all the tears that fall in your face..
for all the sleepless nite...
for all the wrinkle in your face...

i love you mommy...

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should I say our journey...

2010-08-01T21:55:00.002+07:00

My parents and sis came yesterday... well my sis is back now...

My mum is quite sad, coz my sis is all alone now

She cried a bit, but she is ok now

Somehow I missed Jakarta, dunno why?

Maybe coz I was bored here

Maybe coz u were not here

Maybe...

My sis asked me about heading back to Jakarta

or start a small biz there

I prefer the biz part

hope it can come true

my pinkish shop

love u

~dee~

i do.......

2010-07-18T14:39:00.001+07:00

I do love you...really do......hope i'm not too late.

-dani-

sanctuary...

2010-07-04T01:00:00.002+07:00

don't you just love it,

looking at the beach from your bedroom's balcony,

chilling out with a cup of coffee

and a pack of cigarettes...

well... I am not ^^

i do love the scene though...

seeing you every where...

holding hands to that long and winding road..

chased by pack of dogs...

swimming on the rooftop

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hmmmmmpffffh......

2010-05-05T02:27:00.001+07:00

I thought It's for the good n the bad....
I am willing to listen....but why won't you speak up?
I am willing to comfort you....but why did u turn your back?

Who am I?

telat...

2010-04-29T07:49:00.000+07:00

Lom nemu jalur yang pas.. Yang convinient but fast buat ke kantor..
Jadi masih sering telat :(
And they r a bit strict about this :(
Aaarrghhhh :(

new place...

2010-04-26T07:50:00.000+07:00

I am so used to my old workplace..
That I am one of the most senior person,
Whom ppl looked for whenever they had doubt.
I knew what to do and I can act independently.

Now, everything change..
I am the new girl.
Every eye looks at me at what I am doing...
I have to wait for ppl to tell me what to do..
Aaargghhhhh!!!

Now I know why ppl want to be the boss..
It's lot easier to give order than take one..
And don't be afraid if you are not setting a good example
For your subordinate
Coz u r the BOSS..
They just need to swallow it...
Like it or not...

Hope I will start to like my newplace on my next blog
:sigh:

-dee-

till we meet again

2010-04-17T07:49:00.002+07:00

I thought I won't cry
Afterall singapore is such a small country
I will see them again somehow

I don't want them to cry
I just smiled yesterday
Hoping they will set me off with a smile
I walked out with a smile

But why am I woke up with tears rolling in my face??

2010-04-11T20:56:00.003+07:00

Why do you think people do good deed??? Are they doing it based on the good intentions from the bottom of their hearts or is it just another selfish reasons?

Well, that's is when I have done wrong...

Instead of focusing on the deed, I am questioning the reason behind that

always bearing in mind that there's a catch to look for

make myself alert and prepared for the worst

as there's no such thing as fairy tales

and by doing that, I have ruined myself

and worst, I hurt you.

I am sorry...

back..

2010-04-05T00:24:00.000+07:00

I am back..
Back to a place where fish ball is more famous than beef ball..
Back to a place where nasi padang is taste more like briyani
Back to a place where tea means tea plus milk
Back to a place where totoro actually means soft toys

I miss bakso
I miss nasi padang
I miss teh botol
And I miss u the most :(

I miss your rounded belly
Your chubby fingers
Miss that cigarettes smell
Miss your smile
Your smell
Miss u

~dee~

accident proneness...

2010-03-31T22:24:00.002+07:00

I don't know, how I manage to type rite now, coz I got every where.
First I cut my rite thumb and now I cut my let pointer :(

but, I am getting better and better in cooking lohhhh
*cut and cooking no correlation, even though i got second cut while I am cooking ^^

today, i made broccoli and bulgogi... yummy
my bro and sis love it.

I have also prepared for tomorrow breakfast. we are going to have curry udon :D

i can't wait till May...

Actually, I can't wait till tomorrow.
I am going to J A K A R T A
yipeeeeeee

good food here I come.. ^^

~dee~

i am happy...

2010-03-28T09:14:00.000+07:00

I just woke up, and my back is hurt..
I have unpleasant dream..
But I am happy
Too happy

I am happy coz of you
You make me feel loved
You make me feel that I am mattered
I am happy

To any princess in any fairy tales, I am luckier than you
Coz my prince is real and we will have unended happily ever after..
~dee~

mami, i love you..

2010-03-10T08:15:00.000+07:00

Trying to see thing half full now, rather than half empty..
Glad that we found out about mum's condition
Glad that her operation is successful
Glad that I can be with her during all of that

She fights for us, and nothing will stop her for fighting..
Nothing I can do to repay her
At least I can do is to make her happy
Giving her the best that I can
I love you mum...

true love is pain..

2010-02-22T08:00:00.000+07:00

I don't remember the exact word.. But more and less Mother Theresa said that.
By understanding that we should realise we need to make sacrifations for our true love.

Last week, one of my gf texted me.
She planned to come here with her bf
Slowly she told me about her relationship
The hardship that she has gone through so far...
And I was wondering, will I be that strong.. When it's my turn for the trial..
And it also make me realise how lucky I am

I am lucky for having you
Coz I know, no matter what my hand will always be in yours
I love you, Totoro!
I will be strong
Together, let's reach that dreams

~dee~

love you..

2010-01-24T11:24:00.000+07:00

Love you
Love you
Love you so much...
^dee^

untung ga kenapa2 T_T

2010-01-20T20:57:00.000+07:00

Very confident, I will not make any mistake
Tapi siapa sangka
Boooommmmm..... And I am soooo doooommm!!!!
Untung my client is very cooperative
Untung my boss is very understanding
Untung operation gals are very helpful
Untung masih bisa di process
What a day :(

^dee^

...

2010-01-15T07:58:00.000+07:00

I've been thinking, and I know you might say that I am thinking too much.
What a stupid person I must have been
Acting all so mighty strong and powerfull
Showing people who I am
Who do I want to impress
Who do I want to please

Sometimes I hate myself
For being weak and submissive
Why can't I fight my own battle
Why do I care so much on what other people might think or feel about it
Why can't I just be selfish and think of myself and please myself

Again, it's another wrong idea that I had
I can't fight my own battle, I am a coward
I can't stand on my own principles..
I care on other ppl thinking.. Again I am a coward
I am too scared that ppl will dislike me that I started to do things that please them
I can't please myself, and yes it's because I am a coward. I don't even trust myself to let me choose for myself
And since I am a coward, I have ppl to blame for that

Now tell me, what does this coward deserves..
Does she deserve to be loved?
Does she even deserve to live?
Too bad she is too coward to answer that..

~dee~

udah friday lagi

2010-01-08T08:40:00.000+07:00

Cepet ya.. Udah jumat lagi..
Time flies..
Make me even convinced
Not to sweat on little stuffs
As time flies,
And no way you can reverse it..
At least not until my child invented time machine

Another good reason, for you to take care,
Work hard yet lots of rest
Love u
~dee~

till then..

2010-01-07T08:30:00.000+07:00

My sister is flying back to Jakarta today.
She will be back the day after, before finally fly for good on Tuesday.
I don't know how to react.. I don't what I should advice her.
Should I ask her to stay or go.

I miss her already,
We fought a lot,
We are like sun and moon,
Totally difference as a person
We have differen tastes in any way
Yet, I always feel that she is a heartbeat away..

Will miss you sis..
Will miss you dearly..

~dee~

departing..

2009-12-30T16:04:00.000+07:00

I am on my way to the airport,
My parents and my bro are going to China via Malaysia.
Hoping they have a safe flight and enjoy the trip.
As for you, well.. You have me to take care of now that my mum is away..
Lots of love..
~dee~

you are my life

2009-12-30T02:22:00.000+07:00

When I am with you, I know that I will never be alone anymore.
Whatever happens, I will not regret the day,
I went to Plaza Semanggi to deliver Baileys to a guy
Taking one step at a time,
I hope we are getting nearer,
Near the backyard, where you and me
Sit side by side watching the sun goes down

~dee~

121209....

2009-12-12T01:36:00.004+07:00

1st....happy b'day....wish that all ur wishes come true...hope i can be there soon too....

2nd....sorry...really do...wish there was really a ctrl+z available for me to use right now...should've kept all that mumbling and rumbling to my self.

-dani-

2009-11-12T23:03:00.002+07:00

ga kerasa uda mau sebulan loh...
dari panas2an viewing... sempet juga kehujanan
keluar masuk looking for flat..
dari yang berasa ga ada yang bagus sampe berasa bagus* semuanya...
*mostly coz too tired and everything looks the same

senengnya pas akhirnya nemu yang di suka juga ama semuanya..
munculnya khayalan2 design for each room
diskusi2 menyenangkan dengan designer...
angin segar dari designer tentang ini itu
serasa berjalan di atas awan..

well...
reality struck

that's when money knock on your door...

semuanya pake uang... dan ga ada yang namanya bagus dan murah
well... at least not until u saw what money can buy
mulai hari penuh tekanan..
mulai hilang satu2 gambaran rumah idaman...
lom lagi masalah yang datang silih berganti...

luckily... i am loved...
banyak yang ngedukung
banyak yang ngebantu
emang semua ga berjalan smoothly... ada kalanya kita berantem
ada kalanya nangis2an

titik terang mulai kelihatan...
like a puzzle.. pelan2 mulai ketemua matching pairnya...

and now...

udah mau selesai loh ^ ^

~dee~

2009-09-24T21:49:00.002+07:00

i am not ok
simple thing can upset me
for no reason i can get irritated
don't ask me why, coz i dunno the answer
blame the hormone
blame my period
ball is in your hand
coz i really don't have the answer

i am mad at you over a video clip
clip that are supposed to teach us 'bout love and humanity
i am mad at myself for not remembering that i am not talking to you coz of the clip, and called you first

i got irritated coz the connection was down
u can't call me and we can't chat as well
i got upset coz you can't call me and by the time you called my mood spoiled already and i was so irritated.

i feel like slapping my sister coz she is on the call with her bf now
talking so loudly (at least i felt that way) that made me want to bang my head

i don't want to be ungrateful
i want to be able to enjoy what i have
but why can't i see what i have?

i know i have you
i know you love me
than what?
unlike those romance movies, which end when they live happily ever after
my live has continuation
live still goes on
i crave for more...

i know you are not my punchbag
i know you are not my garbage bag
i know you have feeling too
still... i am mad at you

i am so mad now coz with the current connection, my post will/will not be posted
even though it was posted... will you read it without me telling you...

arghhhhh... i am so upset

~dee~

i am sorry..

2009-06-05T19:19:00.001+07:00

adut.. i am sorry..
i am ok
lately emang lagi capek aja..
dikejar2 kerjaan..
but still can manage.

love u..
-dee-

2009-02-15T21:04:00.002+07:00

i have been looking
really lookin
every corner
all places

tapi tetep ga nemu...

dah coba di ingat2
think really hard

tapi tetep ga inget

berulang kali nanya ke diri sendiri
kok bisa??

tapi tetep ga nemu jawabannya

maaf ya...

~dee~

2009-02-01T16:09:00.002+07:00

kayaknya emang ak late bloomer kali ya..
baru sekarang ngerti pentingnya nabung
baru sekarang ngerasain susahnya beli rumah
kenapa ga kepikiran dari dulu2 juga

pusink..
dari harga
dari lokasi
dari ukuran

tambah di pikirin tambah mumet
huaaaaaa

pusink deh

2009-01-11T20:26:00.000+07:00

k
a
n
g
e
n

miss u a lot

~dee~

2009-01-09T21:16:00.001+07:00

now...
everything surround me are pulled away, sucked to another dimension
leaving behind you and me
just us
no prejudice
no race
no religion
just us
you and me in an empty space

let me enjoy the 'now'
even just for one second
so I can treasure it for life

~dee~

....

2009-01-07T01:43:00.001+07:00

love u......

really do...

-d-

ayank ak ulang tahun....

2009-01-05T08:07:00.002+07:00

it's your birthday,
happy birthday ndut
wish I can be there and celebrate it with you
sorry with all the promises to throw you a big b'dae
and not even once I was there to celebrate with you
am sorry...

~dee~

happy new year

2009-01-04T17:44:00.000+07:00

ayank...
happy new year.
wish u all the happiness

love you.

~dee~

2008-12-13T12:59:00.002+07:00

I was so happy yesterday,
At first, I thought it will be an awful day
You were not here, not like last year
I was so sad... in the same time.. I do understand
why you didn't come

Dunno how many times I heard that song was sang for me
Dunno how many times I blushed, yet so happy
My heart felt so warm
I am surrounded by so many people
who love me and care for me

I started to appreciate what I have
I should be thankful

YOU are irreplaceable
but LOVE is ... can't find the right word
well, that's LOVE... no words can describe it

~dee~

senangnyaaaa....

2008-12-01T20:09:00.002+07:00

senangnyaaa.....
hearing your voice again,
padahal juga denger suara km ampir tiap hari,
tapi ga tau kenapa...

i am so happy now

~dee~

2008-11-22T21:22:00.003+07:00

x'mas is coming,
orchard fulls with lights and x'mas ornaments
street lamps transform to candy canes
and the songs...

it feels like yesterday...
you and me and orchard

~dee~

2008-11-17T21:12:00.002+07:00

maybe i miss to tell you
how much i enjoy talking to you
maybe it feels like i am not enjoying the moment
but i really do enjoy every second of it.

sometimes i do get upset
when i felt u didn't care
but how long will it last
cause hearing you voice bring a great joy

i hate when you raised your voice
deep down i know u are not mad
it just u r easily get upset
but still, whenever i heard that tone
it's like my world collapses
scattered.

my dearest love,
i love u

~dee~

sometimes....somewhere....somehow.....

2008-11-16T23:23:00.003+07:00

you know......
sometimes it's really hard being professional, focusing on work and not thinking about other problems that're swirling in my mind......
sometimes it's hard to make time for you and for everyone else....
sometimes it's hard to focus and get rid of this headache.....
sometimes it's hard to split my mind into pieces and think and solve everything at the same time...
sometimes it's hard to make everyone happy.....
sometimes it's hard not to be upset of the situation...
sometimes it's hard to be patient....
sometimes it's hard to let go of the problem...
sometimes it's hard to not get pissed off....

that sometimes is probably now......

-d-

ah.......

2008-11-16T22:38:00.001+07:00

really really tired & exhausted......i didn't even notice the damaged car....didn't even notice that my parents just had a car accident.........dunno....i'm just tired......need a long sleep,,,,

-d-

2008-11-16T20:59:00.002+07:00

I come to you not lookin for answers
I am not looking for solutions either,
I just want to feel that I am loved
that someone out there is waiting for me
that I mean something to you...

I feel so little today..
I am nobody
Nothing that I have done matters
I am just no one
I am just a laughing stock

I only have you

and now, I blew it
I blew it all

maybe they are right..
I am nobody
I mean nothing
No matter how hard I try
I will still end up to be me
maybe if I start to accept that
maybe I will be alright

I am sorry I over reacted
I just want to feel
that I am someone special
that I am matter
even just for one person
that's explain all the weird questions
i don't mean to rush u or push u
I just want to feel special
try so hard not to accept the fact that
I am nobody

but i guess i was wrong after all.

~dee~

pheeeew.......

2008-11-15T17:56:00.002+07:00

wow...
dah lama jg ga nulis di sini.........

fest was great (and tiring), projects are coming in ok (with multideadlines in a go), my sleeps are starting to be normal........

ah.........suddenly i forget what i really wanted to write......oh well, be back here soon , once i remember....

love u,,,,
-d-

2008-11-09T21:23:00.002+07:00

I always write to you,
whenever I would like to talk to you
but you were not there

First of all,
Congratulations!!
I can tell from your voice that you are very excited.
How was it?
I want to hear all about it
One day... tell me all about it one day...

I went to Johor Baru today.
They built a nice house there.
You will like it. I know you will.
But don't think I am gonna take one
It's too far...
Too bad... such a beautiful house.

Come to think about it,
I want my dreamland so badly now
Not that I didn't want it before,
It just I want it even more now,
Will I have it sometimes soon???

I love you honey,

~dee~

2008-09-20T16:50:00.001+07:00

counting the days...
in just a few days, i can see you again...
n_n

~dee~

2008-09-16T21:24:00.002+07:00

dear ayank,
today is my boss' b'dae,
we bought him cake and smash it to his face
it got all over his face, his hair and not to mention his eyes and ears
kinda fun.
it has become a tradition in my office i guess, to smash b'dae boy/girl face on his/her b'dae
i was so afraid that he will smash it to my face as well.

it's a good intermezzo though, considering the current market situation
the whole office was talking about no other than Lehman, ML or AIG.
everyone is under pressure and set a frown place whole day.

>,< so stressfull...

how about your day?

~dee~

2008-09-14T17:06:00.002+07:00

dear ayank,
dah lama juga ga update blog...
last thursday is my mum chinese b'dae (based on lunar year)
the whole day we pretended that we didn't remember... well I never did
but I knew from morning actually.
I thought of giving her surprise... who knew that eventually every one was caught of with something and had to go home bit late
Everything end well though.
She is very happy

hari ini Ista dateng
bawa kue bulan dan banyak cerita2 juga
seneng juga bisa catch up ama temen lama

~dee~

2008-09-09T22:00:00.002+07:00

ayank...
tau ga tadi ak di omelin masa..
abis itu dia minta maaf sih
dia bilang he's under pressure.
customer is filing complain against him.

tetep aja kan
hubungannya ama ak apa
dia bilang dia emang orangnya short temper?
so?? like u always say.. apakah itu kemudian di jadikan pembenaran
padahal what i asked is not for my personal things
it's for the business purpose.. for the benefit of the client...
huhuhu ak sebel banget deh

you know what did he say to me?
Client is filing complaint against me and it's more important than your stupid VRC
abis itu ak langsung pergi aja...
5 minutes afterward dia manggil ak tanya mana VRCnya.. ak cuekin aja
ak bilang ga usah dah ada yang mau kerjain.. padahal ak masih begging ama orang dan ga ada yang mau TT_TT
he has his pride, I also has mine.

pas dia minta maaf juga
dia maunya ak ngertiin dia
well.. kenapa juga dia ga coba ngertiin ak
dia bahkan ga mau denger apa yang ak mau bilang

really don't want to be bothered about this kinda stuff
yang pasti... I see him differently now.
mau di bilang pendendam juga ak ga perduli
why do I have to pay respect to a person who are not worth the respect.
I am considering him as part of my team and always try to give him extra hand

NOT ANYMORE

*lega
nanti ak cerita lagi di telp ^,^
nanti di pao ya

~dee~

2008-09-07T20:52:00.002+07:00

i don't like big house, somehow i feel that big house looks cold
i want my house to be surrounded by white picket fences
with a garden where i can plant my flowers.. hasn't decided yet, kind of flowers that i would like.
should be something colourful but easy to manage
not to mention back yard, with a terrace and day bed.
big enough for our kids to run about and for us to spend our evening
you and you coffee and cigarettes... me with your arm around my waist.
watching our kids running chasing the dog... yes we should have one.

interior...
hmmm... let me choose master bedroom first.. the most important room in the house.
it should painted in warm brown...
with king sized bed with wooden frame
i want to have closet which also a connecting room/hallway to our bath room
don't like to put lot of furniture in the bed room, so it will not look cramped
our bedroom should be in the second floor, and the bed should be facing to the balcony...
we will have white based bed sheet with simple floral decoration.
if it has to be in the first floor, then our bed room should have a connecting door to the back yard
we should be damn rich if we want to stay in sg and living in this kinda house

enough for the day
should put more thought in the bedroom details

then again, it's not the house that's matter
it's you
it's not about how beautiful the house is but it's more about who stay inside

~dee~

2008-09-07T20:44:00.002+07:00

it's been raining lately,
worried sick my laundry will not dry
i hate the dump smell of undried clothes

i don't like rain
i prefer air conditioner than cool air from the rain
rain makes you feel blue
rain makes you sad
rain makes feel alone
rain makes me realise that you are not here
by my side

i am not being carried away
i am not being paranoid
cause i am not

just think a about you
imagining the smile on your face
really bring warmth in my heart.

btw, i have rearranged my room... AGAIN!!
just love doin that
for me the most important room in a house is a bed room
followed by bath room and kitchen

i am finishing here..
better post it in a new post
my dream house...

love you

~dee~

2008-08-31T22:18:00.002+07:00

baru sadar... bener juga kata aan.. dah lama ini blog ga di update...

well on the behalf of my ndut
ndut is very busy right now,
loaded with endless projects,
not to mention educating the people who own the projects as well

----

as for me..
am so excited... finally what i have been waiting for
for so longgg... finally come
it's decided... cross my fingers, there will be no last minute changes
I AM GOING HOME
I have booked my tickets
*eventhough my boss was not informed yet
I am flying home
Accomodation was handled
tickets in hand
just one GO from my boss
and I AM COMING HOME

to a place where my ndut is
to a place where nasi padang is nasi padang and not indian-malay nasi padang
to a place where there is gorengan and not old chang kee kinda gorengan
to a place where there is bakso and not taiwanese kinda beef ball

I KNOW
but what to do
nothing beats Indonesia kuliner
specially now, during the fasting month
preparing for Lebaran...

hmmm.... I miss Jakarta so much

~dee~

2008-07-24T21:13:00.002+07:00

i am so upset today that i am feeling like banging my head against the wall.
i don't understand why such a beautiful morning can end up to be such a freakin nightmare. one thing that i like from writing it down is that i can get it out from my head. it's been there for too long now that i can't stand it anymore.

honey, why every time when your aren't there, my life seems to fall in apart.
but i am gonna make this one different from the rest.
this one, i am gonna deal it by myself- aint goin cryin to you lookin for comfort.

i am a big girl...
and i want u to be proud of me

keep my fingers crossed for friday' show
am gonna miss u like anything
best of luck

~dee~

2008-07-18T20:16:00.002+07:00

cuman satu yang ingin ak ucapkan
bukan sesuatu yang spesial
bukan juga sesuatu yang besar
tapi sangat berarti
dan datang dari lubuk hatiku yang terdalam

sesuatu yang ak harap bisa ak bisikkan
sesuatu yang ak harap bisa kamu dengar
dan berharap kamu bisa merasakan apa yang ak rasakan
pada saat ak ucapkan
dekat di telingamu

'ndut'

~dee~

2008-07-06T20:44:00.002+07:00

ak ga tau harus berapa kali bilang,
i am sorry
i am sorry
i am sorry

ak juga ga tau kenapa
kenapa kita jadi kayak gini
why we always end up fighting
why we always end up hurting each other

padahal we share one dream
mimpi yang kamu kejar
sama dengan mimpi yang ak kejar

tapi kenapa kita jadi kayak gini

tau ga sih....
every single second
all i wish for is to be able to hear ur voice
talk to u
knowing that you are ok
itu aja.....

ga usah 24/7
1 menit aja uda cukup...
1 menit...

i love you
really do

~dee~

2008-06-28T13:10:00.001+07:00

cepet sembuh ya...

~dee~

2008-06-24T20:27:00.002+07:00

i am not the kind of person,
who will blame the situation
or other people, for what is happening
to me now.
and i don't want to be one
nor planning to be one.

once, someone said to me
it's not you
it's not me
it's just the situation
is it?

it's not that i am not grateful, I AM
you have been so understanding
and patience toward the whole situation
but i want MORE

forgive me for being so selfish...
forgive me for not trying hard enough
i just can't...
i just won't...

i miss you too much that it hurts
just thinking of you makes my tears drop

i don't know for how long i can hangin here
i don't want to get use to it
to the idea of you are thousand of miles apart from me
to the idea of you are not by my side most of time

i don't want to understand the situation nor to comprehend it

cause we are belong to be together
side by side

let me miss you
let me cry for you
cause i don't want to get use to it
to the idea of you are thousand of miles apart from me
to the idea of you are not by my side most of time

i really DON'T

~dee~

random me not, random me so....

2008-06-13T20:18:00.002+07:00

love you and miss you so much...
sorry for my randomness this past few days.

_dani_

2008-06-10T21:43:00.001+07:00

belakangan kok berasa nya ngantuk terus
padahal dah tidur lebih awal
malahan lebih ngantuk
aneh

~dee~

tau ga sih... sekarang jadi pengen belajar gambar lagi
gara2 siapa coba?
kemaren tangan dah mulai kaku

besok coba ke toko buku deh

~dee~

2008-05-20T21:26:00.002+07:00

ak kangen...
ak pengen bisa ngobrol ama kamu
denger suara kamu...
tapi kamu di mana???

~dee~

2008-05-02T04:16:00.002+07:00

what a "relaxing" day............
eat,sleep,eat,sleep,showered,eat,call,sleep,eat....
i wonder what i'll do tomorrow..

-dani-

2008-04-18T20:48:00.001+07:00

lagi sendirian neh...
yung2 kayaknya lembur lagi,
padahal ak pulangnya dah agak malem
tetep aja ga ada orang ^.^

kamu kayaknya lagi bobo deh,
ak pengen telp sih, tapi takut ganggu,
kayaknya belakangan ini kamu agak sibuk...
pasti bobonya kurang deh...
makanya ak ga berani ganggu...

met istirahat ya ayankk...

~dee~

syukurlahhh....

2008-04-17T19:55:00.003+07:00

operasi mami berjalan lancar,
mami sekarang dalam masa pemulihan...
kayaknya sih 3 hari lagi mami dah bisa mulai fisioterapinya.
dah lega akhirnya...

kemaren ak sempet takut banget,
jadinya ga tenang mau ngapa2in juga,
pengen banget bisa pulang
bisa nemenin mami...

makasih ya.. dah mau dengerin ak
padahal kamu juga baru bangun tidur,
ga tau kenapa...
pas denger suara kamu, semuanya campur aduk jadi satu
jadi meledak aja...
semua yang ak rasain yang ak pendem...
keluar semua...

i feel like you r here with me
holding me tight
and whisper...
everything is gonna be ok

i love you...

~dee~

2008-04-15T22:54:00.003+07:00

ayank...

doain mami ak ya...

Tuhan masih mau denger doa ak ga ya???

Tuhan ga akan kan, nimpahin dosanya ak ke mami ak???

Tuhan masih mau kan, jagain mami????

ayank...

doain mami ak ya...

i miss my mummy

2008-03-18T20:57:00.003+07:00

for the last few days, my parents were here,
spending time with us, my sister and I

I took them to places..
ride around the city,
see what the city has offered us
tired yet excited

yesterday they flew back to malay,
in the morning, i went to work as usual
like any other days, not felt anything different,
then when i realized, that they HAVE left
somehow i feel so sad
i miss them a lot, specially my mum...
feel like i haven't done enough

i dunno what i look for in life
is this the kind of life that i wished for?

-dee-

If you're not the one..

2008-03-18T20:54:00.001+07:00

If you're not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you're not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call?
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all?

I never know what the future brings
But I know you are here with me now
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with

I don't wanna run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

If I don't need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don't need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you're not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you're not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?

I don't know why you're so far away
But I know that this **much** is true
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I'm praying you're the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life

I don't wanna run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

'Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
'Cause I love you, whether it's wrong or right
And though I can't be with you tonight
You know my heart is by your side

I don’t wanna run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

~dee~

i glanced, and u r not there

2008-02-03T17:56:00.000+07:00

I can still see it clearly in my head
U and ur headset
busy with ur psp
and not to mention ur cigarette.
with a green bag sling on ur shoulder
standing, facing to my office
makes me wanna run the red light
jump into ur arm
holding ur arm
asking how's ur day..

i can still see it clearly in my head
the way u lift up ur head
just for a quick second
and smile when u saw me
before goin back to ur game

i miss that
cause this time,
when i glanced, u r not there...

wow

2008-01-05T01:27:00.000+07:00

whaddayanoe....i'm 26 now

_dani_

growing old

2007-12-01T14:25:00.000+07:00

i am always afraid of growing old,
become so weak, so helpless
is like the world is leaving you behind
and you just can't catch up anymore

yet, today i can see it from a different angle
when you were too weak and helpless, there's a hand to support you
when the world is leaving you behind, there's someone by your side holding your hand tightly.

i am not afraid of growing old anymore
cause i have you by my side
i might be weak and helpless
but i can be strong cause u were there to give me strength
the world might be leaving me behind
but i am not feeling lonely cause u were there by my side.

will you hold my hand till my last breath?

-dee-

adidas billboard

2007-11-23T19:54:00.000+07:00

dah beberapa kali ak ngelewatin
iklan gede adidas di mrt
sepasang suami istri yang lagi marathon beriringan
suami menupuk lembut punggung istrinya
dengan caption, " he said that he will not leave me finish alone "

ga tau napa.. i feel so sad
feel so lonely...
almost cried...

jadi mikir, ngapain ak di sini
sementara semua yang ak sayang ada di jakarta
ayank...
cepet ke sini...

-dee_

how's your day

2007-11-18T20:50:00.000+07:00

you must be exhausted,
tired,
but i do hope you enjoy every second of it

i wish i can be there,
to share your passion for the movies,
your love for the indusry

i wish i can be there,
to encourage you,
to support you,
when you are down

i wish i can be there...

-dee-

Festival Film Pendek Konfiden 2007

2007-11-17T03:07:00.000+07:00

bentar lagi acara dimulai..........

maaf ya akhir2 ini sibuknya kebangetan....
really miss you....

i'll try to contact you as often as i can during the festival......

love u...

-dani-

i lost my phone...

2007-11-13T19:32:00.000+07:00

not that i don't wanna keep it,
not that i take it as granted,
yet, it was gone now.

voice to remain me to stay happy
voice to be listen whenever i miss you
voice of my beloved
has be taken away from me

words that keep my heart warms
words that bring smile to my face
words that express your love for me
has been taken away from me

we have a life time to replace that,
yes i know...
still i feel, something is missing...
what is mine and now longer be mine.

am sorry to put you in a difficult situation
but, i want you to know that...
you make it lot more easier for me
i don't know what would i do without you.

thank you...

-dee-

missing you

2007-11-13T05:08:00.001+07:00

I miss your smile, I miss your touch;
I miss the voice I loved so much;
And when I'm sleepless in the night
I miss the arms that held me tight.

-dani-

the cure

2007-11-13T00:08:00.000+07:00

cape...
kurang tidur.....
bener" pegel badanku....

but u know what,
every time i see u and chat with u....
every morning and every night...
semuanya langsung hilang....
langsung senyum....

thank you...

-dani-

pinkish

2007-11-10T15:50:00.000+07:00

u know something...
i wish u r here...

to hold me...
to hug me...
till i fall asleep

-dee-

deepavali..

2007-11-07T19:09:00.000+07:00

hari ini ada perayaan deepavali di kantor,
as u know ak pake baju panjabi...
mereka semua seneng loh,
malah ada yang terimakasih ama ak karna ak dah mau pake baju itu
everyone is happy...
we are having a big feast.

nanti kalo kamu ke sini, kita makan makanan india ya
kayaknya sih bakal cocok aja ama lidah kamu...
sesama pecinta makanan pedas...

temen2 deket ak di kantor banyak yang udah tau soal kamu
ak juga udah nunjukkin foto kamu, yang di hp dan di dompet
kata mereka, u look cute.... pastinyalah... kan marmut ak yang imutt
kamu mau ga kalo harus pake baju india...
kayaknya cocok deh ama postur kamu

-dee-

dear my princess

2007-11-06T00:26:00.000+07:00

sorry.

-dani-

study study study

2007-11-05T15:53:00.000+07:00

i'm still learning to put my whole trust in you......

forgive me for still having fear and jealousy in my head and in my heart

-dani-

c4 melting...

2007-11-05T03:00:00.000+07:00

hmmm........

akhirnya kmaren turun juga sbagian payment from c4....
langsung beli cigars n pulsa....and bakso...
besok rencananya sih mo ngurus passport...
cari info dulu ah ngurusnya gmn...

i can't wait to see u.....

-dani-

pindahan...

2007-11-04T13:08:00.000+07:00

selesai juga pindahannya,
capek bangettt.. tapi puassss

i kinda like my new room...
more like a bedroom than a hotel room
i like to personalise things.. which i did to my room

masih banyak sih yang mesti di tambah..
tapi for now, bolehlah...

-dee-

moments...

2007-11-01T01:08:00.000+07:00

kangen naik motor membonceng dirimu.
kangen berputar-putar mengelilingi kompleks itu.
kangen your hugs......

Tertawa...
Ceria...

kangen bersama kamu....

-dani-

gosong....

2007-10-27T20:38:00.001+07:00

ak parah bangetttt....
masa masak di microwave aja bisa gosong... :(:(

ak dah baca cara masaknya
katanya sih masukin-balik-masukin lagi
ternyata pas ak masukin lagi dah gosong
seluruh ruangan jadi bau asap gitu
untung alarm ga bunyi :(

gimana donkkkkkkk.....

-dee-

capekkkk... kaki serasa mau patah

2007-10-27T20:25:00.000+07:00

hari ini ak pergi liat my future room.
it's located in 189 bishan 13, unit # 2-439
akhirnya apal juga.. sebelumnya suka bingung kalo di tanya alamat ama no telp :D

sebenernya ak dapet tempat tidur. but it's kinda sofa bed gitu
dan sangat2 ga nyaman buat ak, belom lagi makan tempat
dan kerepotannya mesti buka tutup that bed every single day
selaen itu dah ada lemari baju dua pintu satu ama meja komp/belajar 2
ga tau deh tuh meja banyak banget buat apaan.

so i decided to buy a new bed
one for me and one for my sis.
ak beli rak yang goes well with the bed buat naro pernak pernik ak or books
buat naro foto ayang juga :malu:
kaca meja, soalnya di kamar ga ada kacanya gituh :(
tong sampah
storage box buat di taro di kolong ranjang <<>
laundry box, buat taro baju kotor
i think that's about it
yang kurang tinggal bantal ama gulink doank

and u know something....
ampir semuanya warnanya item
no.. semua item warnanya item kecuali loft bed warnanya silver...
hmmm... apa ak cat item aja yah????

capekkk banget
kaki serasa mau patahhhh

but i am happy
i like to plan thing a head
and extremly happy if my plan is worked

next plan... december

-dee-

scribble dabble.....

2007-10-27T01:51:00.000+07:00

ga tau mo nulis apa, tadi dikomentarin gara-gara ga nulis-nulis di sini..hehehehe....

well anyway, berhubung sekarang dah mulai nulis...ya udah deh, nulis-nulis aja apapun yang bisa ditulis...
well, tadi dah chat ma shinta, sebenernya buat yang freelance itu sih dia just looking around for freelancers, karena dia baru dapet beberapa link orang2 yang bisa provide projects...jadi kalo dia overload or ada job yang ga bisa dia handle (seperti motion graph), dia nanti lempar ke aku....gitu doang sih inti pembicaraan tadi.....blom sempet ngobrol budget, cause emang blom bisa diomongin juga.....

well........akhirnya hari ini aku bisa santai ga mikir kerjaan.....one day off...baru besok mulai ngerjain final revision buat kerjaan yang itu...

Trus kalo buat web yang isinya portfolio, aku lagi ngerapihin dulu footage2nya....n bikin menu websitenya dulu......hopefully the web can be launched soon......

apa lagi ya....hmmmmmm, nanti deh dilanjut lagi....

love u.........

-dani-

.... apa susahnya sih...

2007-10-26T06:01:00.000+07:00

sebelll....

apa susahnya sih.... :(

-dee-

i wrote this in the plane...

2007-10-24T16:56:00.000+07:00

glance at the window
all i can see is white clouds
i take a look to my left
a lady is sitting there
it isn't u..
can't find u no where
can't see u anywhere

i am going now
and this time i dunno
when will i come back
i will not be there by your side
please do take care of yourself

i love everything about you
the way you eat
the way you walk
the way you talk
the way you look at me
the way you hold my hand
the way you pout
the way you smile...
how i treasure every single second
and how i am gonna miss all that
please do take care of yourself

no one has faith in us
every one is against it
and that every one is the one closed to our heart
i know how it has made u feel
i can feel it too

how i wish i can say everything is gonna be fine
how i wish i can put away all the doubt
how i wish i can make them believe

please...
keep in mind and in ur heart
every promise
every plan
vow that we have taken

have faith
have faith in urself
have faith in me
have faith in us

please do take care of yourself
cause i do really love you

promise you with all my heart and soul...

-dee-

Am glad...thank you..

2007-10-23T14:48:00.000+07:00

I'm glad that we're together....
Now, I can see the path....

I'm glad that it's you...

Thank you....
I really do.

-dani-

A Brand New Day - Ten 2 Five

2007-10-23T14:33:00.000+07:00

A brand new day for you and me
In this place as husband and wife
We'll be holding on till we grow old
Together forever and ever..
I promise you
That I'll please you
With my endless love and passion
And I'll never leave you..
This is the journey that will never end
We'll have our children named Jeremy and Felicia ( hmmm, tar namanya jangan ini ya...)
We'll have a beautiful house
With a bench and apple tree
I know it sound to much
But this is a brand new day..
It's a brand new day..

-dani-

senangnya......

2007-10-23T13:20:00.002+07:00

many doors awaiting us to be opened...

so happy...

-dee-

please take a good care of my heart

2007-10-21T14:29:00.000+07:00

i used to think that human is a selfish being
that one will not love other more than one loves oneself
love will fade,
and happily ever after is only belong in a fairy tales

i closed my heart from love
secured it in a safest place
afraid of being hurt
afraid of being left
afraid of being heartbroken

tell myself not to put trust in love no more
tell myself not to believe in man
tell myself to stay out of love

but look at me now

i am flyin in love
tried to deny it
yet, can't lie to myself
i am so flyin in love

please take a good care of my heart...

-dee-

wanna flip to the last page...

2007-10-21T14:28:00.000+07:00

the more i think about it, the more confused i am
the world keeps changing and somehow i just can't keep up
time flies so fast that i dunno anymore what i really want and what i wanna reach

i was like reading book of my own story
i have to be patient and read word by word, page by page
i don't have any clue about what will happen next
the difference is, i can't flip to the last page and see the ending

the feeling of not knowing
the feeling of uncertainty
make me feel so insecure

am i moving toward my happines
am i moving toward my love
how if i had to choose between my love and my happines
what would it be?

-dee-

time flies

2007-10-20T09:12:00.000+07:00

sekarang udah hari sabtu...
berarti besok minggu...
berarti tinggal 4 hari ak di jakarta
then, i'll fly back to singapore.

aneh.. bukannya ak emang pengen banget ke singapore
then why i feel so sad
feel so lonely,

-dee-

i love you....

2007-10-19T11:23:00.000+07:00

i love u...

beruang lucu ak...

how i wish i am there to hold u tight in my arms

morning.........

2007-10-19T11:12:00.000+07:00

sebal..............

-dani-

jakarta...

2007-10-19T10:03:00.000+07:00

the moment i stepped my feet in jakarta' soil,
all i can think of is you
how upset i was, when i lined up for so long in the immigration
or how long i took for me to get my luggage.
how i ran to the exit point and search your face among the others

there u r, waiting for me.
i wished i can wrap my arms around you
still seeing you and able to feel your presence is heaven for me.
i just lost my mind...
i am lost in your beautiful eyes and charming smile
i can't think cause all i can think about was you

wondering in a bus
strolling aimlessly in a mall
accompany me working
watching movie for the very first time
lookin for the moon
wondering around in a bike
how i love all those

thankyou...
for making this one week trip memorable for me.
thankyou...
for being you.

i love you

-dee-

ON

2007-10-17T05:14:00.000+07:00

It is impossible to fall out of love.
Love is such a powerful emotion, that once it envelops you it does not depart.
True love is eternal.
If you think that you were once in love, but fell out of it, then it wasn't love you were in.
There are no 'exit' signs in love, there is only an 'on' ramp.

-dani-

sure

2007-10-17T05:06:00.001+07:00

Falling in love with someone isn't always going to be easy...
Anger...
Tears...
Laughter..

It's when you want to be together despite it all.
That's when you truly love another.
I'm sure of it.

-dani-

a pray.......

2007-10-15T21:14:00.000+07:00

is it real....or is it just a fantasy?

god, help us.........

if we're meant to be together, please lead us the path so we can get through this.........
bless us with this love that you have given us.....

thank you......

-dani-

can i????

2007-10-15T18:09:00.000+07:00

once i looked into the world with the eyes of a child
believed that my life will also ended like the fairy tales that i used to read
i believed that my prince charming will come
riding on his white horse and take me to his palace
where both of us will live happily ever after

i gave everything
i gave my heart...
for the happy ending that i thought i have in hands

but i was wrong
i dream for the tales and i was kicked back to reality
that actually, i have nothing
and for that i have lost everything

i told myself not to believe in love no more
that there's not a life like a fairy tales
that there's no happy ending for me
especially now

then you came along
pouring me with love and care
treating me like a princess
made me started to believe that I will to.. have a happy ending

with u, i started to love
with u, i started to believe
with u, i started to dream
can i?

can i still be loved?
can i believe?
can i dream?

-dee-

visit malaysia

2007-10-15T15:37:00.000+07:00

i went to malaysia these last three days.
my brother took us to Cameron Highlands
it's a nice place, very beautiful and so green.

to my surprise, they were taking a rainforest adventure
it's very muddy and i was wearing skirt T_T
but it's challenging and fun.

from there, they are taking us to the Boh's tea plantation and factory
we went to the butterfly farm, which is much much better than the one i visited in sentosa
a beautiful rose garden
and strawbery farm

overall, i really enjoyed the trip
eventhough i am a bit sad, as i didn't have money to spend

yet, i miss u a lot
and wished tat u r there with me
i am also imagining how would it be when i visit that place again in the future with u

on the way back to KL, i was shocked
as there's a fight among the driver ( i think)
i was so scared, not to mention on of them got into our bus
was so scared that they'll continue the fight in the bus
good think that everything is ok and i arrived peacefully in KL

the very next day, my bro took us to his future house
it's quite nice and it's at the lake side
i was asking myself, when will i have my own place
where i can finally have my dreamland

then we rush back to Puduraya bus stop,
all the way back to Singapore.
the bus dropped us at woodlands
and i didn't know how to get to my place
luckily, there's a nice gentleman helped me out.

-dee-

Eid Fitr

2007-10-14T11:58:00.000+07:00

Lebaran......hmmmmmmm, the one time that i get to see most of my relatives.
Time flies so fast.
Nabila dah jadi ABG dan menikmati musik2 emo.....
Salsa dah SD kelas 3...
Okky ternyata dah lulus SMA....
Jody udah jadi ABG bgt.....
Zahra dah bisa ngomong dikit2...
Tia dan Gita udah mo lulus kuliah...
Gina makin tinggi aja, padahal baru SMP...
Kiki is pregnant again, waiting for her second child...

and everyone asks me the same question.......

"koq pacarnya ga dibawa? Kapan nih nikahnya?"

-dani-